Pointers

"Nagmumukhang "kayang-kaya mo akong palitan.""
--E, mas nagmumukhang ako ang kayang-akay mong palitan. With no regrets. To think na kayo naman talaga in the first place. I have no right. Kaya ako ang kayang-kaya mong palitan.

"You deserve someone way better than me."
--Sana sabihin mo rin yan sa kanya. Kasi, mas deserve niya ata yang line mo na yan after all you both have been through. Tapos ganyan mo siya tinrato. At kapag binitawan mo na yang line na yan sa kanya, feeling ko doon mo marerealize na, it's not because I deserve someone better than you, but because all along, maybe you are just afraid to tell me that you would chose him over me. Mas pipiliin ko pang masaktan dahil harap-harapan mo sa aking sasabihing mas mahal mo siya kaysa pilit mong ipagdidiinang I don't deserve you,... because even if I don't deserve you... the hell I care. It is you, Deli, that I want. It's a matter of standing up if you like me or not.

The other half I wanted to tell aside from what I blog before:
I keep on bugging you to come over my place, and do those random stuff. It's not just about that. Sa sobrang desperado ko, sa sobrang pagkatanga ko, sa sobrang kabobohan ko, iyon na lang ang naiisip kong paraan para makita ka sa personal. Dahil sigurado ako, you would never meet me or see me, or, maybe even think about me, if not because of those random things we do. How I wish I am wrong on this point, but that's what've become of me, a practical slut. So I hope you appreciate all the little 'hey's and all the little 'uy's on chat, the simple smileys i type, the usual kaharutan sa chat, the phone call, the t/sext. Because it's not just about that. It was my way to actually believe you wanted to talk to me in the first place.

There I've said it. :) All the unspoken reasons why I keep bugging you, not stopping to talk to you. And all what-nots.

"Believe what you want." That's your usual line. But this time, I say, believe what you want, because I believe what I just wrote. :)