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Hindi ko maiwasang malungkot. Aaminin ko, I am not looking forward to the times we spent every time you come here. But I always look forward to the fact that I can see you, talk to you and to just be with you. Totoo yan. Mas pipiliin ko pang makipagkwentuhan ng mga kung anu-anong kinaiinteresan natin. That is why, I really look forward to the things and kasabawan na kwentuhan we have after we do those 'other things'.

I can't be really mad. Sobrang babaw naman kasi kung gagawin ko 'tong isang malaking tampo 'diba. Paulit-ulit na naman. Let's be real, those things happen. Plans sometimes cannot be followed always. I just really hate, in general, na sa sobrang last minute, the waiting turns into nothing. Wala tayong magagawa dyan. Kaya imbes na magmukmok, we better be doing more productive stuff by ourselves.

But I just can't help but be sad. Because what I was really looking forward to was the talk, the eating perhaps and the drinking maybe. But that won't even be happening kahit na bukas. I don't demand anything. (Yan ang hirap pag may nakakabasa ng blog ko, especially ikaw). These are my thoughts, and sana please don't feel that I am demanding and nagpaparinig ako. This is just the way I think. Nagkataon lang na nababasa mo at alam mo yung blog ko hehe.

---I think that you are not looking forward sa labas-labas lang. You are not looking forward sa chill na kwentuhan lang. Maybe because, you find it as a 'date' which you don't want. I just feel sad kung ganoon man yung nasa isip mo. Wala na ako magagawa doon.

Or, if I am wrong all along, busy ka nga lang talaga siguro at baka pagod ka na talaga after work, so you want to go home na after.

My god, sobrang babaw ng mga hinaing ko. But again, don't think of this as something na panibago na naman nating pag-aawayan.

I just find it sad, that if my thinking is true, you would look forward to the naughty things that we do, and not the kwentuhan we have after that. I find it sad that, maybe if I am right, we are not on the right page?

Thoughts thoughts thoughts ko lang yan. No changes needed.

PS: Actually wala pa sa kalahati nang sinulat ko yung totoong mga nasa isip ko. This is kumbaga tip of the iceberg. Dami ko pang mga naiisip. Pero sa susunod na iyon. :P