Waiting game

This is my most hated part of being part of a production--the waiting part after an audition. You just don't know what's happening after an audition. Makes me very paranoid, makes me think of many things, makes me reflect on how good or how lame I am. Certainly not the good feeling of waiting.

Today, I had a table read for an upcoming production this September. It wasn't actually an audition. I was invited for a table read, and that became our sort-of audition. The director just wanted us to read parts and the production was intended to be auditioned by students of the university. So, they just invited some alumni of the school, me included.

The last time I auditioned for a play where I was cast was back in 2012. That was almost 4 years ago. And after graduating, I was almost always invited for roles. I tried to audition for outside professional companies, but it just doesn't end up well.

Again, I hate the waiting part. Tonight's table read was also disappointing for me as well. I was not satisfied with my performance. And I won't be surprised if I won't get in. But I just want to be part of this prod. Especially this prod. Oh wellz.