tired. but not tired.

You know I wouldn't mind. Kahit ilang kaartehan pa natin, kahit ilang hindi pagkakaunawaan, I will always be unable to resist saying something. I will always be the first one to maybe ask questions. I will always be there to act as if you must belong with me.

Pero ang di ko na talaga matiis is you always leave me to doubt. To keep me hanging. When I ask questions you probably don't want to answer, you keep me hanging. One very painful thing to do to a person is to let him think of all the things he can think of, mapa-aware ka man o hindi. The very thought of being indifferent to casual situations. Kung gaano mo binalewala yung mga simpleng tanong, ganoon din yun kabigat sa pag-iisip nung taong nagtanong. That is painful.

It may seem a little thing. But it destroys a person very gently. It can be a form of being 'praning'. But it the point is you let them be praning. You let them think of things. Wala naman masamang magtanggi, magsabi ng totoo, manakit ng harapan. Pinakamahirap yung biglang bibitaw at walang sasabihin.

You let people play with their minds.

The hardest hardest part is, deep inside, I wanna give up. But I won't. And I want you to remember that I did not chose for me to give up. You chose for me to give up. Maybe because it is what you want.

Just remember. I did not want this.

NEVER EVER SAY THAT I DON'T DESERVE YOU. BECAUSE FRANKLY, YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD THAT TO HIM.