Contented

Alone time again sa apartment, after a kinda long day: went to Math Department to update my status for teaching for first semester, and had another artistic meeting for the upcoming production. So pagkauwi ko, dami ko na namang naiisip. And I suddenly realize, so far kuntento na ako. Ilang taon din akong naging parating balisa, worried, parating nag-iisip ng problema, sa acads, sa org works. Pero ngayon, wala na akong iniisip na ganoon, sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam. And while I'm on my last days before actually working in an actual job, sinusulit ko na tong happiness na nararamdaman ko for contentment. Ilang araw na lang, and panibagong routine na naman. Ilang araw na lang may mga bago na naman akong kakilala. It is so refreshing.

And once na nakaadjust na ako sa job and sa pagdirect ng next production, that would be another time to think kung ano na naman poproblemahin ko. Another time to think kung anong next move ko. What career would I get out of this new job. What's the next step for this track? Kailangan ko atang aralin kung anong career ang nilolookforward ng isang patent analyst. Also, while directing, panibagong pagpiga na naman ng utak for creative juices. Ano pang pwede kong i-contribute? This has been my problem since I had the lsaa. After that recognition, halos wala pa akong naicocontribute sa field na iyon. This is it. A new challenge. And kailangan kong pagandahin to dahil nakakasalalay ang pangalan ko. Charot. Haha.

But so far so good. I may not be able to teach na, pero oks lang. Kung di ko makuha yun, probably it's because I may not be able to give my full attention to other stuff I do. Oks na ako dun. :)

Thanks for this huhu. :)