The thicker you are, the wiser I should be.

Most appropriate title this blog had ever seen. Once again, I am writing an entry. And the more I write words in this, the wiser I should be. The more I write, the more thoughts come inside my head, the more I become mature. This is a one big step to moving on. Finally, I have moved on. I may forget the entire feeling but the memory still remains. It was a sad but deep journey I had for the past year. The URL may seem pointless, but I've learned to move in. Sad but happening. I can't do anything but my heart told me what to but move on.

The past month has been quite a journey. As I start my 22nd year of existence, baon-baon ko ang mga alaalang nabuo sa iisang buwan lamang. August 2012, I love you more than ever. Being part of my first production in UP-Diliman gave me refreshing feeling, new friends and colleagues, new experience, lessons, and the courage to move on. To realize that the best thing in life is loving and be loved in return, no matter how deep the love is--love of friend, love of lovers, love of one's self.

As I turn the next page, I may need more courage. And this courage may come either from the one year I was so sad, depressed, down or it may come from the one month I felt so fresh, so new. These banks of emotions, forever I will have.

To YOU: I never imagined I have met you. I never even imagined I will be able to work with you. I never realized how nice you are, how kind you are, how sweet you are, how friendly you are until recently. This is the best thing that ever happened to me in months, meeting you. I never imagined that you, an internet sensation, a charming actor, and everything nice, I will meet. Now, all that I need is this moment. To see you again. Even though everything is done now, all I need is a moment to see you again.

A day before yesterday, I said I LOST. I lost to my heart. I let myself be in love with you. I can't blame it. But I blame myself, for letting this happen for a one-week production. But maybe, this has purpose. This has reasons--me falling in love with you. That reason I do not know yet. But I just feel that this relationship of ours will be very different. Right now, I am dying to be always with you. It feels really strange. I am hoping for a lifetime friendship, kahit friendship lang. It feel so weird, it feels like I should be your friend for a very long time. Behind those conyo appearance and pa-charming look, I think I know that you have a pure heart. I want to know you more.

Let the pages be thicker.
Til I blog again.

Currently on playlist: Dead Hearts by Stars, The Chain by Ingrid Michaelson and This Moment by Nic Chagall