so far so good

wtf third, why are you still rambling about being so lonely in Manila when you are already living there for over 7 months, like c'mon! wtf lang.

hahaha. that was my other me scolding me like we're not as one.

honestly, i'm still lonely (and alone -> please put on a deeper meaning here plz).

so many time to explain but so many thoughts that i still need to ponder on. this is me currently honing my inner self. 2008 was really a monster for me, maybe because i expected a lot (read my Multiply entry about this around January 2008 -> i really expected good things), but it turned out the other way around.

in fact, i wrote on a one whole sheet of paper all the major negative things that 2008 did to me, to my family and to the world, seriously. i even included the collapsing of AIG because my mother partly works in Philamlife. that list was long but i tried to keep it in the darkest part of my drawer to forget about it. i don't plan to throw it. that list even helped me a lot to think that there is more. besides, it is 2008 NO MORE!

so even if i'm lonely, i know i'm blessed. :)

stay happy. :)

p.s.: i only realized just now how i hated 2008 AD. seriously. all along i thought 8 is lucky. but i guess, there's a phrase i always hear more, Lucky 9.